all mine. sign papework in 45 minutes!!! 10k



oy lordie what am I doing!!! =D

lost the diamond earring matt gave me for v day.
obtained a sapphire/diamond necklace and earrings for our year anniversary.
Swing Dance lessons kick ASS! may continue it just for fun.
I can now legally drive a motorcycle, the class rocked! now to decide if I want an 883xl harley sportster or a small not so cool but great learning 250 honda rebel. choices..... arg!
backpacking/ camping scheduled for the next 3 weekends in a row!
Matt is wonderful, enjoy him more and more.
we need a roommate which means we are broke. - luckily camping doesn't cost much!
new job is easy, laid back and the people are good so far.
there has been lots of death around me lately... I feel so sorry for all my friends that have lost loved ones. keep your head up, and remember the good times in which they taught you.

I'm going to go crazy, that is if I don't drive Matt crazy first. I've been job hunting already and it looks shall I say... bleak. Investco is paying me 3k to keep my mouth shut on any goods I may have them which seems to be an okay deal. I hope to find/have a new job within a month. I say a month because I'm leaving for Cancun on the 29th and will be back on the 7th. no point of job hunting while on vacation. so I'm hoping that the 3k will help with the shortfall that unemployment is paying. I'm going to be short about $400 each month. I will be able to cover bills but that 400 used to go to food, gas and the occasional fun. Now that it's not there I really have to be careful with the funds. If I'm lucky and can find a job that 3k will be going into education. I've got this nifty community college booklet teeming full of fun stuff to learn.... oh what's this...Project Management... $1495 only 35 hours of course work to obtain a PMP... sounds snazzy. if anything I can start to take the basics since I don't have an AA.
In any case I have written up a "to do" list today so I can stay occupied while away from the computer. I think once I'm back from Cancun it will take me a week to finish the list. Hopefully I'll have some interviews rolling in by then.....

no path in direction
no image in my mind
worthless due to my past
not able to change the direction of where i've been
hopeless in the moment
unable to persuade the audiece
can't you just take me for who I am today?

well they say when one path ends another begins.... I was "laid off" today. aka fired because I don't kiss my boss's ass. i'm sad, i'm disappointed in myself. i'm worried, i'm excited. I want to scream, i want to cry. I want to prove to her what she fucked up, I want to torch her. right now i'm just a wreak trying to think positive. it all comes back to what do I want to do with myself and that's the hardest question for me to answer. two weeks before my trip. 5 years 20 days from when i started..... blah.

I'm happy and lucky I have a good support system and great friends. I'm a lucky person.

she interviewed for my position yesterday. tomorrow i get to find out if I'm fired/ quit or have a new position within the company. JOY

Recieved my Stimulus Payment today. I may:
a) purchase tickets to Vegas, Matt has NEVER partied in Vegas, friend(s) birthday parties in August and October.....
b) save it/ sit on it for my downpayment of my Sportster 883xl
c) spend it while on vacation
d) tune up for car is also needed....

what to do what to do??????

1- matt is amazing. love him more and more each day.
2- my family thinks i'm prego just because I'm weighing in at 112 pounds.
3- my family dislikes my haircut and does not hold back telling me about it-friends seem to like it or are just being nice.
4- having to improve my attitude or perception of a bad attitude in order to keep employeed.
5- worked out this morning and at lunch. will continue to do so.
6- I obtained a sunburn that was rockin, I'm now almost tan.
7- 883xl Sportster will soon be under my ass, providing I keep job.- we will be taking class soon to ride.
8- 30 DAYS TILL WE LEAVE FOR CANCUN. CAN-NOT-WAIT!!!!

today I was told I have a week to improve my communication skills, attitude and team building skills before Kathy starts looking for another admin.

had swordfish cooked in pinapple friday. I even scrapped the pinapple off. didn't eat it. should have eatin it if I was going to get one.
today, cold sore appeared.

going to the m's game tonight, I love diamond club seats.

almost all the way moved in. house is cleaner than I've ever seen it.